Yesterday (here) I wrote about how we lost our baby which brought with it many questions. My main focus was on how do you trust a God that has allowed this to happen? How was I going to stay focused and not let the sadness and confusion overwhelm me? The answer–trust, people, prayer, thanksgiving.
TRUST
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
It takes some deep digging inside yourself to trust when you are in that storm. It is a decision. It is the hardest decision. It is this decision that will affect how you process and view what has just happened. Trust God. Trust the plan. Trust God. That doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt or that your shouldn’t feel sadness. It means that you trust this will bring you someplace better. It means God has plans to prosper you. To allow you to grow to be more like Him. Some days it is easier than others. Every morning before getting out of bed I would pray to God. I trust that you will provide me with enough courage and strength to get me out of bed and face life. I trust you will be with me and allow me to feel wrapped up and loved. I pray and trust you will take away this sadness but leave the good memories with me. I trust. It is the verbal praying and your decision that will allow you to trust. No one can make that decision for you. God had a plan in the death of our baby. Once I decided I could trust that I could move on in life and look forward to the hope of a future closer to God. I would not be where I am today–leading and guiding other Christians in my church without that season of my life. God is good. You just have to trust.
Tomorrow I will show you how “people” played a major role in overcoming losing our baby.